hate my life soo much...though...

i duno y but nowdays im hating my life much...!to much tension....irritated by boss...family commiting to much...mayb im judging too much...till i dont have time for myself..its time for me to change....time runs so fast..im goin 23 next year...real pissed off with my thinking..i wishes i had some1 to rely on.!

hahax..another setthe song from dhanush..

y this kolaveri kolaveri kolaveri di???

A NEW START..AGAIN..

im starting to change...duh...more bz....no time for frens..yet if i have...family urges in..fuh damn bz..after so long bloggin...damn..i love bloggin but nows its bugging...

so tis time..bubye my old fren kalai@rupha...happy for your new job..yet i hav to start back again,.duno who m i gona get as friend..gona mis her..cz she was my only hope for work..ten tba join in...now both aso leaving..work pressure increase....just has to change ma self...to happy go lucky mode...instead to into..!

its mine...the topper of the song...love the voice yuvan...

yen nanbane ennai yethai

en paavamai vanthu vaaithai

un polave nalla nadigan oh

ur engilum ellai oruvan

nallavargal yaro

theeyavargal yaaro

kandukondu kanni yaarum

kaadhal seivathillaiye

gangai nathiyalla kaanal nathi enru

pirpaadu gnyanam vanthu laabam ennavo

kadhal enbathu kanavu maaligai

purinthu koladi en thozhiye

unmai kaadhalai naan thedi paarkiren

kaanavillaiye en thozhiye

valaikkaiyai pidithu

valaikkaiyil vizhunthen

valakkaram pidithu

valam vara ninithen

uravenum kavithai

uyirinil varaithen

ezhuthiya kavithai yen?

muthal vari muthal

muzhuvathum pizhai

vizhigalin vali

vizhunthathu mazhai

ellam unnal thaan

ithuva unthan gnyangal

enaken intha kaayangal

kizhithaai oru kadhal oviyam

murugan mugam aaru thaan

manithan mugam nooru thaan

ovovonrum veru veru niramo

yen nanbane ennai yethai

kaadhal velluma

kaadhal thorkuma

yaarum arinthathillaye en thozhiye

kaadhal oviyam

kizhinthu ponatha

kavalai enadi ithuvum kadanthidum

adikadi enai nee

anaithathai ariven

anbenum vilakai

anaithathu ariyen

puyal vanthu saaitha

maram oru viragu

unakena theriyum

en idhayathil vanthu

vizhunthathu edi

ela manam engum

irunthathu vali

yamma yamma

ulagil ulla pengale

uraipen oru ponmozhi

kaadhal oru kanavu maaligai

ethuvum angu maayam thaan

yellam varnajaalam thaan

nambamal vazhvathenrum nalame

kadhal enbathu kanavu maaligai

purinthu koladi en thozhiye

unmai kaadhalai naan thedi paarkiren

kaanavillaiye en thozhiye

this song has got deep meaning but its more to love failure...

Music Director - Harris Jayaraj
Singers - S.P. Balasubrahmanyam, Swetha Menon
Lyrics - Kabilan

Yamma Yamma Kaadhal Ponnamma

Nee Enna Vittu Ponathu Ennamma

Nenjukulle Kaayam Aachamma

En Pattam Poochi Saayam Pochamma

Adi Aanoda Kaadhal Kairega Pola

Pennoda Kaadhal Kai Kutta Pola

Kanavukulla Avala Vachane

En Kannu Renda Thirudi Ponaale

Pullangulala Kaiyil Thanthale

En Moochu Kaatha Vaangi Ponaale

Pombalaya Nambi
Kettu Ponavanga Romba

Andha Varisayil Naanum
Ippa Kadasiyil Ninnen
Muthedukka Ponaal
Un Moochu Adangum Thanaal

Kaadhal Muthedutha Pinnal

Manam Pithamaagum Pennal

Ava Kaiya Vittuthaan Poyaachu

Kannu Rendume Poiyaachu

Kaadhal Enbadhu Veenpechu

Manam Unnaale Punnaa Pochu

Kaadhal Paadha Kallu Mullu Da

Adha Kadandhu Pona Aale Illa Da

Kaadhal Oru Bodha Maathira

Adha Potukitta Moongil Yaathira

Yamma Yamma Kaadhal Ponnamma

Nee Enna Vittu Ponadhennamma

Nenjukulle Kaayam Aachamma

En Pattaam Poochi Saayam Pochamma

Ota Potta Moongil
Adhu Paatu Paada Kudum

Nenjil Ota Pota Pinnum
Manam Unna Pathi Paadum

Vandhu Ponadhaaru
Oru Nandhavana Theru

Nambi Nondhu Ponen Paaru
Ava Poovu Illa Naaru

Enna Thittam Potu Nee Thirudadhe

Etta Ninnu Nee Varudadhe

Kattu Erumba Pol Nerudathey

Manam Thaangadhey Thaangadhey

Vaanavillin Kolam Neeyamma

En Vaanam Thaandi Ponadhengamma

Kaadhal Illaa Ooru Enga Da

En Kanna Katti Kooti Ponga Da

Yamma Yamma Kaadhal Ponnamma

Nee Enna Vittu Ponathennamma

Nenjukulla Kaayam Aachamma

En Pattaampoochi Saayam Pochamma

Adi Aanoda Kaadhal Kairega Pola

Pennoda Kaadhal Kai Kutta Pola

Kanavukulla Avala Vechane

En Kanna Rendu Thirudi Ponaale

Pullangulala Kaiyil Thandhaale

En Moochu Kaatha Vaangi Ponaale

undecidable life.

wat a statement..UNDECIDABLE LIFE..!DUUHH....Life is so un predictable..for example..if its gona rain..sure we will bring umbrella...aana..rain varame monsoon vantha kodumeiya ila..??????

aprom flood vanthe ireke problem pattathe ne innum pressure high panne va..???

yen cast marunem,yen cast marenum,yen cast marenum..!!!!

happy diwali... =)

wishing all my frens happy diwali....=)

night shiftssss..

its my 4th day of night shift..yet im nt tired....duhhh....im normal..it means i can do it..thank god...plannin to open a coffee shop..hope ul help me..

indeed i read a statement..god helps those who help themselves...true one...

so my life im gona change...very difficult..but can..=)

engeyum eppothum..

life ends so fast..unexpected reasons causes our life to end...life is so short..makes us to think twice....a glimpse of tot of love..love pudikembothe sollirenum...sollena..finish..

irritated by a an idiot...

yesterday was on the way to pick my bro from lcct..lost my way n went 2 klia...instead was rushin back to lcct wer i found a very irritating driver...there was 2 lane...one was full with car waiting for the passengers...so i was behind a driver who was waiting for gap to fill to wait...then oout of sudden he just stopped in the middle of the road and start to cal his passenger..if the passenger was a single persson with a hand luggage i wud'nt mind...but her wife was carrying her luggage as well all by her sweet slow time...i was right behind them watchin them..behind me there is 10 drivers who is honning them to move...instead i was just watchin..i wass pissed but there driver behind me honkkin so long and draggin so i just a touch at the hon cz my car was the loud one..just a small hon...the wife immediately bend down to see my car number plate...more worst..the husband pointing his finger at me askin me to get out from the car....oh gosh..i was alone...such an irritating driver i was rushin and he is askin me to get down...just bcz im a female driver he treated me like this......reali fed up with this kinda driver....i hon once...the ppl behind me honking nearly 10 times...then ni he moved...i was realli fed up with the husband...cz he pointing his finger to me n askin me to get out frm the car..just bcz im alone he treat me like this....irritating idiot...!watch out guys who tinks girls as POWERLESS ....reali messed my day ysday!.....for a good info..the wife n husband were MALAYS..and the both were into car...TOYOTA ESTIMA number pplate WLC 4070...imagine...such kinda irritating idiiot in such a car...people who deserve never get it...racist country...!

oh my angel....love this song...listenin to almost everyday..

Unnai Marakaamal Irupathaal Irakaamal Irukiraen En Imaigal Moodum Pothum Un Mugam Paarkiraen.. Unnai Marakaamal Irupathaal Irakaamal Irukiraen En Imaigal Moodum Pothum Un Mugam Paarkiraen..

Oh My Angel.. Oh My Angel.. Oh My Angel.. Oh My Angel.. Oh My Angel.. Oh My Angel..

changed my car number plate 2day..

NCK 3520..loved the number...too bad my dog loved it too...until got bitten by it...thank god changed it..perhaps it wnt to long wit me i guess...

opportunity comes once

opportunity comes once in life..grab it while you can...i just wished i get the chance...

realised my real character..

just realised my own character after so long..that i cnt be silent..alz happy mood because i have people around me...wen i was in clge earlier..i dont mind staying alone...but now after staying wit my family for 1 year +++....i feel that i cnt live alone...tats the reason one should not have everythin in life at once...once lost..it wil be very hurtfull..so far im gd..just abit too bored wit routine..but 2moro my bro will b bk ...will spend sum time wit him..i just hope that my future life is not as per wat kalaivani agaspran tol...silent one...aiyo..i duwan...eventhough everyday fighting...i wnt mind..because there is no more silence within me...

realised my real character..

just realised my own character after so long..that i cnt be silent..alz happy mood because i have people around me...wen i was in clge earlier..i dont mind staying alone...but now after staying wit my family for 1 year +++....i feel that i cnt live alone...tats the reason one should not have everythin in life at once...once lost..it wil be very hurtfull..so far im gd..just abit too bored wit routine..but 2moro my bro will b bk ...will spend sum time wit him..i just hope that my future life is not as per wat kalaivani agaspran tol...silent one...aiyo..i duwan...eventhough everyday fighting...i wnt mind..because there is no more silence within me...

bloggin day

after so long blogging...buz with friends..and family...work...tiring work..wen eva i go for work,i fil like i dont belong ter..but stil god is sending me to work..to let me know that..every man has their own problems...its about how v deal them..i just need some strength and some wonder word..longing for it..from the heavenly father...just gimme sum strength to overcome this pretty wicked world..people say im quiet...im nt quiet..jz tinkin how to get rid of things..im nt worried..just tinkin how to overcome it with you bside me,perhaps il get it better with u..

just a story to tell..

Life, Love, Money & Time :: Heart Touching Short Story

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: "Daddy, may I ask you a question?"

DAD: "Yeah sure, what is it?" replied the man.

SON: "Daddy, how much do you make an hour?"

DAD: "That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?" the man said angrily.

SON: "I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?"

DAD: "If you must know, I make RM.100 an hour."

SON: "Oh," the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: "Daddy, may I please borrow RM.50?"

The father was furious, "If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I work hard everyday for such this childish behavior."

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down, and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that RM.50 and he really didn't ask for money very often. The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

"Are you asleep, son?" He asked.

"No daddy, I'm awake," replied the boy.

"I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier" said the man. "It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the RM.50 you asked for."

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. "Oh, thank you daddy!" He yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills. The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

"Why do you want more money if you already have some?" the father grumbled.

"Because I didn't have enough, but now I do," the little boy replied. "Daddy, I have RM.100 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you."

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts.

Do remember to share that RM.100 worth of your time with someone you love.

If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days.

But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than to our family...

just a small notez to say..remember your loved ones alwiz...

velayudham...!!!

waiting for the movie..meanwhile...vijay in action.....

theebah's birthday..

20th august..its theebah's birthday...my skool mate..now my workmate..but she cnt recognise me...cz skool time..was diff..lol....good day for her..hahax...

to my dear friend...in life there is up down...alwiz be happy...cause god never let you down..tc dear...i hope u are happy..

last week friday...an unknown person made my day..

last week friday..as usual i wen to work aftnun..around 1pm..that day was so boring..its right after i my night shift off...besides a day before i met all my loved ones,,in chilli's..not to forget...yet a memorable day..

a conversation made to smile..which is very memorable to me..

A husband came to buy some medications his wife usually take...but he doesnt knw wat exactly the wife wanted to buy..so he jz came over to me in the counter and said..

GUY:uh..hye ma..i need a help..i wana buy some medication for my wife..she wana continue the dose only..but i cant knw the name..

Me:its ok anna..u tel your wife's name,il figure it out for u.

GUY:her name is nalini ic..-------....

ME:Anna she has been taking a couple of medications..i need to know wic 1..

GUY calls his wife and just gave me his phone..

Me:shocked but answered the phne..hello ka..which med u wan ka.???

WIFE:sory ma..i forget to give him the prescription..he is not into med al da...i wan medication for my throid ma,then my cough tablet also ma..that antibiotic ma as well..can u help me ma???

me:ok akka,the medication i can give..but u wan me to explain to your husband aso huh ka..?

WIFE:its k ma...how ever he is gona forget it ma...nevermind u write it for me..i knw da..

me:ok then ka..tats al.

WIFE...ok ma thanks alot ma...ur good name ma..???

Me:carol ka..from pharmacy..

WIFE:carol..ok..will c u again nxt time..make sure u b ter ma..tc n thanks alot again..

higlight is..she does'nt knw me yet..she addreses me..as ok ma..tc ma..

love the phrases....

struggling alone is the most hardest things in life...

i have seen in my life..so many things in life...have to struggle alone...every1 needs a companion and yet v neva get it...except for one...GOD..our best fren..

changes for my benefitss..

has alot plans for changes,..but i hope the changes is for the betterment of me...when every1 is changing dont mean i need to change like them to..it means..every1 has a reason for changing...while so long in my life..i never had reasons..since now i have..y dont i..?changed into silent person..now changing into a better person with a better quality..is good for me n...hmmm..

hope so..

its the middle of night...hmm....innaike enna pannelam ne yosiche...brain damage aagi..rombe bore ache...!!

i looked around myself..

the world around me..totally filled with people who are selfish..and yet they stil pretend as tough ntng happen..wonder how...they can be so good coloured outside and totally diff inside...i never like this...since every1 is gettin to do wat they wan..im gona do it to...plan to go langkawi on my own..and then..sarawak n bali...wil go for sure..but must save some money 1st..has many plans in my mind..yet stil tinkin how..

cheated feeling..!!

i duno y..but i felt cheated..fill so bored edy.....i duno y but my life is not goin on smooth move...i wonder y people change...

relay for life..

this year relay for life cancer program is ahead..wil go wit malini n bulls i guess this year..this time its in bangi...gona enjoy maself..i heard alot of them are cumin to meet back ol friend...haiz...hw much i misses them..so much fun...gona be so happi to meet them back......wen i was in skool time..i never had close friend..most of them ran after beautifull girl...haha..i guess they had a click among them..lest friend s for me during skool day...wen i wen clge..friends are innumerable to...the list of friends never stop like fb..haha...including fb friend who bcum family friend...miss ya al rite now..

bloggin back to normal...

miss my blog..so long didt loggin..

2day...wana talk about...step step step it up..song from kaavalan..listened to it nearly 5 times..the bits are good..watchable..hearable....the dance is good..the steps are good indeed..

im sory im sorry...

sowiieee....

kannaal pesum penne enai mannippaayaa
oru kavidhai thamizhil kaettaen enai mannippaayaa

nilaa pesuvadhillai adhu orukkurai illaiye aah
kurai azhagenru kondaal vaazkayil engum pizhai illaiye
penne arindhu kondaen iyalbae azhagu enbaen
poovai varaindhu adhile meesai varaiya maattaen
mounam pesumbothu saththam kaetka maattaen
moonrampiraiyinullae nilavai thaeda maattaen
vaazhvao thuvarkudhadi vayasoa kasakkudhadi
saigaiyilae enai manniththu saabam theeradi
O I am sorry, I am sorry I am sorry
O oh I am sorry, I am sorry I am sorry
O I am sorry, I am sorry I am sorry
O oh I am sorry, I am sorry I am sorry

click the word sowiee...above..!

quest of love...

sila vishiyam puriyathe..sila vishiyam teriyathe...sum gals cheat their partner..sum boys do that..each looks for fun in relationship..wants to have the best in appearance..nowdays..who looks for the good heart...its shame to say..but guys who go after sexy girls..also there..haiz....paala aatkal..paala rangagal....i also looked for a guy with superb eyes...mayb for me it was nice..not for other....melt in those eyes..for me..hahaha...ridiculous enough to be scolded by friend..but..now...i dont go eyes...heart matters alot..one may look good outside..not inside..

happy birthday vijay dari peminat setia you

finally something is ahead for me.

phewwhh.after so long bloggin...feels like alive again....

finaaly...had a chance to go further into studyin..bachelor degree..my dream..every1 has a dream..wants to look good..wants to be pretty..wants to be fairer...wnts to be rich..wants to have ferrari..wants to have this n that...while i wanted to have my degree.and here it is...part time..oh god....finally showed sum ways to pursue.. it...goin alor star on the 2nd of july..long journey..planned well..but hopes last minutes nothing changes..has to change the duty..has to get scolding from head..wonder hw to tackle this..???.........

last night shift for this week..

this week not so tiring..had a chance sleep for 2 hours..kinda okay..but ended having headaches...knee ache...haiz..wrong posture of sleepin...praying to god to fulfill my prayers..prayers not so burdened but..kinda ok..

was listening to uyirai tholaithen movie's song..musicc by dhilip varman...the song..kangalil kadhal..ten sollamaley..awesome song to listen.wen alone..well set..

sollamaley is awesome..eventhough its a malaysian masterpiece..its like listenin to melody from kollywood......

sollamaley kanmun thondrinal....<3<3

tots of mine..

watched kaavalan so many times..and yet..i was not bored..it was more like the deepavali movie...fazil of cz..hats off...most of the people say...haiz..kaavalan was a flop..but yet vijay stil make a stand in ma heart..i feel surya's love in movie's are like so fake..feel better when watchin vijay's movie...the feel of love is deep...example..not praising vijay but...vijay love in kaavalan was frm a call..wic in case he has not seen the girl yet he still like the girl's manners,way she tok..she became his life..and yet..surya's love in vaaranam ayiram..he saw her in train..cz she is beautiful..he sang song...he was after her...people say its love at first sight..agreed..true..but the basement of love there is beauty...to me..to other mayb its diff..one more things...in the wen sameera got in love with him..the had...ehmm...before marriage..wic i strongly disagree...hmm..may its the new trend...but to built a good family with childrens who has good manners...i prefer it the other way round...

back to kaavalan..it was good movie...sum said..its not cz of the climax..but i say go for the climax..after all..if asin unites with him in the train..who would watch the movie twice..i wnt watch..cz it would the normal love story...but cz it has a twist in the end...i watch it nearly 5 times...in the end..she unites with him in the train itself..worth watchin it lar...

very expressives in term of love...the silent type of guy..becomes cheerfull..energised to stdy after got a cal..its normal in love..love is the energy for life.

no money money no honey no honey da.

once start to work...everything need to be counted...hate this...but yet...still counting...was a happy bird wen in clge...should have continued studies...wonder wat is god is trying to do for me..???i have a lot of plans in ma mind...and yet..so many things i worry..so many things disturbing me...and 2day i have decided...DUN CARE ABOUT ANYBODY..!

when people can change when money comes...y should i change...i wnt...and i dont want..dont force me..i dun wan..marriage is a torture..

mixed feelings..y hhuh.?

2day i have mixed feelings...sum say go get married sum say dont...sum say enjoy..sum say...dun worry...wat i wanted was totally a diff thing...not this...haiz...everythin needs a luck n chance...in my life...i have gt a wonderful family..wic gves wat eva i mite need...wonderin wen will my quest for the real things comes true...waitin still...listennin to my fav song..in the midnite 12.57am....n writing tis blogg..with a cup of coffee...i feel like i need sum1...to tc of me...sumtimes..i feell i dont need any1..ore kolepamave ireke....

tensed...!

i hate to get stucked with stupid nonsense wen im back home to relax...!reali hate it to maxx...

once i tore my meniscus now im lookin forward to get cured..

1 week knee treatment lol...

best wishes dear..

best wishes day..may god bless ya...be the best beat the rest..

wonder how people can survive like this..

alot of human on this earth are so damn bloody selfish...for their own benefits..they are so selfish...but dont care about other people's aim...come on lar...just because a person is tallkin alot..dont mind they are so bad n have an attitude prob...u enjoyed the maxx in ur life at my age...but...in my age...dont support but atleast dont prohibit me....i also will get ma day....im not seeking revenge...just to show that...i can do my best if i get my chance...wait wait...up there over the in the heaven he is watching....he knws how i felt....ul get to know wat i felt one day....just get it..

im soo happyy 2day....

miss her alot and she is back...haiz..lotsa things to tell u.....but fgt edy..haha..heard a song...kannil anbai sollvale...superb song...reali loved it..music is awesome..thansk to james vasanth...good one...the guitar n the flute..

fast n furious 5!

every relationship should have a start..let me make it..wnt mind it..

i duno y..but people say i changed...

a rewind button will be easier...sometimes things in life never change...the only thing that change is time..alwiz wished v had a better time..never wished what v do at that time will b good to others...changes are hard to accept..yet when accepted it will b good..not realising it will actuali benefits...mayb i too egoistic to accept the truth..mayb i should change the pace of life...for a better chance in my life..mayb i should change my personality....into a better person i guess..not affecting other's character...and other's life..learned that im bit cracko head..should change it..so that i dont face anything risky further in my life...wished i had a better start of...but didnt get a chance...mayb i should not say it..entah lar..hahax..trying to learn to speak malay..like cracko aso...still not fluent in malay...should speak better...should change my perspective...should change my character into a more mature person...hence...making a condusive environment to live with....

everything has to has a start...i will make it a start..ok sure..

the thing is that..when i make a start i hope other would understand it also..will wait for it also..

soulmate

haiz...everyday marriage...marriage is such a burden..single rocks alwiz...never ending story...it just so difficult to find our type of guy...my idea is to wait not to jump so fast into marriage..cum on lar..the one who has bf..can go ahead..not me..im still young..not interested in marriage...love story naa ler allergy...

marriage is beautiful to those who have wat they want..not wat the get...and live the way they want it..

lonely life...

when v got busy with our lives..we neva knew how many would miss us soo much..?the way i did...

major problem in heart..to sensitive when not taken care...

solutions...be muka tebal..dont bother about others..

problem faced...being rude to others...not talking enough with every1...losing everyone in an instance...

later on problems..not having a good relationship with everyone causing depression and anxiety..

moral of the story..not let any1 to be alone...cause...loneliness is the rust in everyone's heart wic later on breaks it...

talaate paade nee illeyee!

Thalaattu paada nee illaye...
Thalai saithu kolla madi illaye...
manathoodu paesa vazhi illaye
en kanmoodi thoonga thunai illaiye... (2)


kaathal enbathu theivamaanatha...
Katrukonden ithu kashtamaanathey
Therinthum kooda vanangugikren
unnai seraamal vaadi naan poogiren..

Yaar seivathillai Thappu kutrangal..
ingu yaar seivathillai penne..
Yaar seivathillai Thappu kutrangal..
ingu yaar seivathillai uyire..
enthan theivamey kan thirappayaa?
intha inbam thanthiduvaayaa......


Thalaattu paada nee illaye...
Thalai saithu kolla madi illaye...
manathoodu paesa vazhi illaye
en kanmoodi thoonga thunai illaiye...

Anbum shanthamum mayamanathoo
naan seitha paavam aativeithathaa
urangum kangal engi nindrathe..
unnai paarkamal neerum vella manaathey
Yaar seivathillai Thappu kutrangal..
ingu yaar seivathillai penne..
Yaar seivathillai Thappu kutrangal..
ingu yaar seivathillai uyire..

enthan nenjamey sernthiduvayaa?
en kaathalai nee nerungiduvayaa......

missin u alot..

currently i missin u so muchh..but yet there is no tears in my eye right now...i wonder why this happens to me..?mayb i prolonged too much on seeing you everyday..mayb this is needed to happen...haiz....wonder when ul b back...wen u are not around i fill like emptyness in me which can never be satisfied with anythin i do....eventhough i do so many things the whole day...i think more than 10 times a day i think of you..i neva had meal without the thoughts of u...waiting for your come back...have lotsa things to tell u my dear....maybe this wat is meant by soulmate...realli miss u ma...

choosing the right one...

2day is bloggin day...for me cz im nt slepping..

2day was jokin to my parents...my bro insisted to gettin married to gal like the heroine of the movie"madrassipathinam"..uduvome...nambe arya ve...ten i said..oh like that mins susah wan to get married lar..then i tol..ok then il get married onli wen i get a person like the hero of 'CHIKKU BUKKU'....who else..arya....hahahaha...semma comedy..bcz very hard to get arya...if get also..mana tahu hati tak same..nwdays guys cnt believe aso...tgk onli like kucing..tapi keja all like ......................

censored due under age people reading...kikikiki

partner is not so easy to get...must be caring for me...no money no car aso nvm..manase mukiyam,..haha..if folow ol people mins..must kahwin..lawyer,.engineer..and doc onli lar..no technician get married...boilerman neva get married...

marriage is such a big commitment...haiz..im nt ready for it...such a big burden..i cnt tolerate this...sometimes i get irritated by some characters...but wat to do hav to go thru..

wen v have something v dun appreciate it...wen v lost it..then onli v will look for it..

2day..i was readin my friend blogs...and tot..haiz..wat a cruel world has it be..wen v wan something...v go behind it as though there is no 2moro..but then..wen v have..it becomes the cornerstone of the house...wonder how people changes..?everythin has it own times...v just have to wait for the time..the problem..the duration of waiting is very important..because...in that time....v may lose control of things v have..v may over expect...in this matter i would prefer rajinikanth's style...

everythin has its limit..v just have put a knife before v eat...watch your step wen u walk and think ahead wen u wana commit...his quotes are worth listenin..not uplifting rajinikanth..his movies are diff but...in real lives it matters hw they lives...example...surya married his fav girl..after few years of waiting a reply from surya's dad...his started agaram foundation right after his 1st fame movie...this is an example of how people shud...enuf is enuf...dont have to be rich to feed your kids...just be caring..its more than enough for them....right now im dying for care n affection..but yet i neva got it...from human...from god is alwiz there for me..cz i believe he has helped in my life and would help me after this...gdgd...

i hope in future i own wat i wan..just waiting for the right time..and the right person....

life is boring 2day...from mrng...just sittin n lepakin tokin to maself..

2day since morning i was passing my time...by helping mum...cuttin vege...haiz...boring work..worst cum to worst...sittin infrnt of idiot box....makin maself an idiot...haiz....should do sumthin to prevent maself from being idiot further...part time job pun tak dapat...brain cnt think anythin further than that...haiz..

tension.....!

haiz..nowdays alot pressure...haiz...everyday has problem....my problem is not the their...but mine is different...i dun like blabbering words...tats the problem.....i dun illegible words...which is the words that totally dun like....haiz...its easy to say that u can change this..u can change that....but can u urself,change yourselves.?no rite...?not every1 is perfect...cum on lar...im totally fed up with al these kinda characters lar..haiz...hate those irritating words....haiz....wonder wen others gona realise......just because i watch....dont mean im quiet...i have my own way....punch dialog....yen vaali thani vaali....hehehehe....inthe prob ke lam..bayanthe pona.....kalyanam panne solrange...kadevele....athe suicide vide kasthamanathe lar...atheke ithe evalo meel....ale videnge...

haiz...no money we must manage not waste..

money changes people..i dun eva wanted to change...oh god give nala butthi..so that i dont change like other do....i wana be humble like u please..plz dont change me...i reali hope on you...i fill like wana run away...but cnt..

marriage is like suicidal...if i get married earli..it means i will offered as a slaves to sum1..unlesss he is the type i wanted...if he is the type i wanted...mayb i wnt bother doing everythin for him...but if he is not the type i wanted then how..haiz...rather suicide..

had a good day..

thanks to kalaivani...spend less times but filled my heart...thanks to her..hahax...love u lotss..

wat a sick life...

hm...wen my freedom was taken away u neva...now that u are in my shooes...get it...get the taste of your med...this is how it feel....for once in my life...im thinkin bad of the person who thinks bad about me..i have neva did this before...i alwiz think of people's happiness ahead of my pain..but this time u deserve it...sorry to say...padanmuka...

like rajinikanth use to say....a bad person can change into a good person..where the whole world wont believe it..but if good person chooses to be bad...appe ulagam thangathe...

inike nee raja nalaike naan raaja...in the end i felt y m i thinkin this way...???haiz..bad bad repent2....feeling lovelesss..totally...ceh..

tension..

everyday tension....tension...comparing the good times with the bad times...no point,....now u knw hw i felt..the onli difference is higher pay then..nothing else..still u have the same pressure...onli thing i kept it to myself....but keep on telling every1...stupid..idiot ....bodoh.....its you....because of your irritating character..u neva had good friend...u used me...u tricked me to do wat u want...cz in the end u behaved quiet...and act smart...huh..guess wat?

around the world the statistics show 90% of the womens are having the maximise pressure compared to mens...so...who is better in handling pressure..women or men..????

men saying out their pressure to everyone...womens cry out to themselves...come on guys...al wants for an understanding women...tc of them in future..but hw many guys out are doing wat the expecting from others??come on lar...bullshit....i realli hate this kinda characters....irritating idiot...will see hw many days u gona go on like this..?????

journey of love...

watched mynaa..a small action in it from the hero explains hw human should be loving towards other...wonderfull thinkin..

written by prabu solomon...

naresh iyer n sadhana sargam for the song kaiya pudi..simply superb...nice lyrics...recalls hw a love should be...i would prefer to watch the hero..vidarth@suruli..funny guy yet caring n so child hearted guy who wants a girl likes his mum..totally outstanding movie...

like every1 says...watch it like kamal...very expressive in detail...its like watchin the golden ol love movies..back to kamal...haiz...very gd...

like the name of mynaa=journey of love.. a revolution of the human nature's comeback..

waiting for it...

waiting..for a good response...

wat eva hope neva happen.?wat eva v dont hope will happen easily..hahax..wat a small world..i guess god will give its due in season..waitin for the season..

dissatisfaction..

every1 in the whole world..alwiz wanted to have a superb power car...a better mcvalue meal...a tastier burger..even a bigger house..easier to say..whole lot of money to but wat eva v wan...but still out there in the world..there are people wanting the plate to be at least made of solid substance...a normal sandals to wear wen goin to the forest...a pack of grain to cook a meal..atleast a tree for shade...dissatisfaction is important to bring eustress not distress.....eustress is ultimately the power to win everything in life..where people lose it n gains distress alot in the mind...wic leads to permanent deppression and anxiety feeling...many think..i wana be better with al the super gadgets..but how many out there wants to have an ordinary life..with a perfect mate..with not much salary o nt to less salary...more to say....time to spend with each other...its human norm that v fgt to spend time once v knw each other...i tink twice a week i talk about this..this is bcz of of the time i meet the same people everyday..no difference..once in a while i meet extraordinary people....until then chaoz...busy week ahead...haiz,.

listened to this song nearly 20 times..

Ava Enna Enna Thedi Vantha Anjala
Ava Neratha Paathu Sevakum Sevakum Vethala
Ava Alaga Solla Vartha Kooda Pathala
Ada Ippo Ippo Enakku Vendum Anjala
Ava Illa Illa Neruppu Thane Nengila

(Ava Enna Enna Thedi Vantha Anjala..)

O Onnu Kulla Onna, En Nenjikulla Ninna
O Konjam Konjam Aaga, Uyir Pichi Pichi Thinna
Ava Otha Vaartha Sonna, Athu Minnum Minnum Ponna
O Enna Solli Enna, Ava Makki Poana Manna
O Onnu Kulla Onna, En Nenjikulla Ninna
O Enna Solli Enna, Ava Makki Poana Manna

Adanga Kuthiriya Pola, Ada Alanjavan Naane
Oru Poova Pola Poova Pola Marthivitaley
Padutha Thookamum Illa, En Kanavula Tholla
Antha Soazhi Pola Soazhi Pola Punnagayale
Ethuvo Engala Sertha Irukku Kaythula Koarka
Oh Kannamuchi Aatamondru Aadiparthome
Thuniyal Kannayum Katti, Kaiya Katthula Neeti
Innum Thaedura Avala, Thaniya Enge Ponnaloa..
Thaniya Enge Ponnaloa..
Thaniya Enge Ponnaloa..

Ava Enna Enna Thedi Vantha Anjala
Ava Neratha Paathu Sevakum Sevakum Vethala
Ava Alaga Solla Vartha Kooda Pathala
Ada Ippo Ippo Enakku Vendum Anjala
Ava Illa Illa Neruppu Thane Nengila

Vazhka Raatinam Thaanda, Thinam Suthudhu Joara,
Athu Maela Keela Maela Keela Katuthu Thoda
Mothanal Uchathil Irunthaen
Naan Pothunu Vizhundaen
Oru Meena Pola Meena Pola, Tharayila Nelinjen
Yaaro Koodave Varuva, Yaaro Paathiyil Poavaar
Athu Yaaru Enna Onnum Namma Kayyil Illayae..
Velicham Thanthathu Oruthi
Avala Irutula Niruthi
Joora Payanatha Kelappi, Thaniya Enge Ponnaloa..
Thaniya Enge Ponnaloa..
Thaniya Enge Ponnaloa..

Ava Enna Enna Thedi Vantha Anjala
Ava Neratha Paathu Sevakum Yamma Vethala
Ava Alaga Solla Vartha Kooda Pathala
Ada Ippo Ippo Enakku Vendum Anjala
Ava Illa Illa Neruppu Thane Nengila

O Onnu Kulla Onna, En Nenjikulla Ninna
O Konjam Konjam Aaga, Uyir Pichi Pichi Thinna
Ava Otha Vaartha Sonna, Athu Minnum Minnum Ponna
O Enna Solli Enna, Ava Makki Poana Manna..

GENERAL HOSPITAL.

before this i was neva seen anywhere in general hospital...ystday i made a visit there..not to good..its the opposite...doctors who were able to read books cud not read humans....i say terrible...doc is the greatest job on earth...a life holds in your hand....haiz...saw a death ystday,..terrible service...the one has money goes to private for insurance...then the one who does not have money..wat do they do,.?

rich get richer poor get poorer...no matter how much u r advanced in technology..u r still 100 hundred years back in humanity....

money plays a role in everything.....money money....

guts..

once in a life...v feel that its ok w will go thru...but during that period of time...v will....im onli lying to satisfy maself..i knew this earlier cz i cud nt accept the pain earlier hence decided to feel it later...wic hurts more..but ma courage to go thru it got even further...important thing in life...the will of a heart wic goes thru pain..never fails....guts irentha pothum..

midnite 12.58am..what happened was...!!

i asked my parents about the movie kuty starred by dhanush...eventhough shreya who is the best for acting for more than the money paid for her...but yet her character was a yuck in kuty..i was concentrating more on dhanush's character..worth watchin to have his character...if u see his little changes in one scene wer...shreya will scold him so badly and yet...he will stare and start to smile...his positive thinkin is cute to watch...so i have successfully downloaded the full version and watch it when eva im not in a good mood like rite now....every1 sleepin and m tip tapping on the lappie...scribbling on my blog wall..i guess if sum1 reads this..sure will this gal is crazy..

but everyday is a lesson for us...i guess not many know it...

my wish is to see people around me happy with what they want in their life...which not many have..but i wil try my best to give it to them..2day....my parents truly realised what was on my mind for the past 6 mths...worth for patience..atlast finally...they know how i think and wat i feel for them...patience pays off one day...but the time for patience is like..the string in the guitar..wic is tight and able to slash our finger if wrongly handled and yet it gives good music when handled carefully...

2day i was thinkin should i change my car sport rim..then...my dad tol..yeah lets changed it...then i saw a man walkin past me..and u knw wat i tot...i m thinkin of adding accesories to my car and i still have people walking.....sometimes feel like wana be humble..but sometimes i feel..i should show to the person who once insulted my parents...that my father has brought me up successfully...

i hope to a bridegroom who takes my parents as his...will wait for the right.till then..no kalyanam onli enjoy...chaoz..

money minded..

money minded..people..

money wnt help you no matter in wat eva stage u are...u can have plenty of money...but ur happiness cannt be measured at all with the money u have...one may have..car,house,a secured job...confirmed high pay salary...but u wnt get the happpines when a person has little bit of salary,a job with enough salary,kids who crack jokes...wife/.husband who makes u happy in all the small things u do..it depends on the metaphor..a person who says enough has a difference with the person who says not enough..

a person who says not enough:has alot of complaints,neva had enough money to pay bills..anxiety filled emotion all the time...the will to change is neva high alwiz...worrying over things...

a person who says enough:has a lot of motivation to achieve things,neva had enough money but managed to find at the end..happy go lucky..the will to change their life is stronger than the faith to climb a mountain upside down..neva worries coz in the end their faith in god will help them to achieve success...

the religious personnel will usually say neva trust confucious and other person who is involved in saying there is no god anywhere..im nt saying this is wrong but...god who created you also knows y u r suffering...either u have done something bad or else mayb cause he wanted to test even worse cause he wan u to realise how strong r u inside...

everything has a reason behind..

irukuvenuku irukurethe ne prob...illathevenuku illeye prob..totally this world is saying that dissatisfaction is the total majority prob everywhere...but in my point of view....dissatisfaction is a race where the road to achieve is our life history...

challenging life..

in my happy times..i will think..i wan sum1 to be wit me wen i m sad...when im mentally challenged and also physically..i wanted to have sum1 next to me..but during my challenged time...i will usually everyone quite bz with their daily chores..so i have to endure it all myself.,during tat time,my mind will challenged so terrible that i wil have myself totally changed...haha..wat confusing state i undergo...but...usually i will win from it...but nw...i plan to change maself...not to be normal....
not every1 has the right to choose things they want and yet be happy with wat v have...tats the best....trisha illena divya......!

work work..

i have 14 days continous workin days...thanks to my workmmate who loves me alot....she loves me alot hence she dcided to see me evryday in her office..sickening work...everyday come back frm work...just sit infrnt tv for1 hour n sleep...haiz....life is boring...i hate routine..n its happening again n again...haizzz

racism

i hate racism...for me..education should be the same to every1...eventhough i dun have money in my had...atleast a certificate to say im educated....

but 2day when i start to apply for studies in gov,..the ting that i reali got fed up is...the statement onli bumiputera are allowed...shit lar...

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